The thing is, you can get used to anything. You think you can't, you want to die, but you don't. You won't. You just are.
This is Alice.
She was taken by Ray five years ago.
She thought she knew how her story would end.
She was wrong.
Why I Read This:
Elizabeth Scott is quickly becoming one of my favourite authors. She writes in a wide variety of styles and genres and when I saw this one at the library, jumped at the chance to read it.
Nearly two months after reading this book, I am still struggling to understand how I feel about it. The story centers around a girl who was abducted when she was still a child by a pedophile who uses her for sex and is getting frustrated with the inevibility that she will grow up soon and no longer look like the child he wants to be with. Alice knows this and starts to form a plan. A plan to either run away or kill herself so he doesn't have the satisfaction.
This book was very disturbing. Let me warn you: there are sex scenes. They are brutal and you want to reach into the book and make them stop. I also wanted to look away. But maybe that was the whole point of adding them in; that we shouldn't look away from this type of abuse, or any type of abuse just to make ourselves more comfortable.
What was even more disturbing though was Alice's abilty to see how much she was hurting yet wanting to keep the cycle of abuse going just to save herself. Again, it got me thinking if there was something deeper to what the author was trying to say here but I was still so disgusted by what was going on that this time I couldn't really come up with much. I can understand now though that she just wanted to stop it from happening to herself any way she could. She was trying to survive.
It is an amazingly well written story that is very dark but also very necessary. And despite not wanting to keep reading, I somehow always ended up doing so anyways.
I read a library copy.